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04 November 2011

Where have I been

I know I have been sadly neglecting my blog.

We had a bit of a rough week here in Crazyville. It's health-related, something I wasn't prepared for. I can't say much, except it's definitely not cancer, but it's worrisome. I spent yesterday in a daze at the doctor's office, scared and crying. However, my doctors are closely monitoring me, we caught it early, and they seem very positive that we can fix this. Left-brain is being my rock; he's confident this will be OK. He was trying to cheer me up while I was in the doctor's office, with silly inside jokes, and, because some witch lady got mad that my doctor got pulled out of a consult with her (I had an appointment with the physician's assistant, but she pulled him out of his appointment and started acting like a jerk in the hallway, which upset me more, because I don't like to cause problems), told me I need to not worry if anyone else is upset, that, for once, I need to put myself first. I'm trying that. And, as I so often do when it's too much, I put it in a higher power's hands.

The very wierd thing is, my stitching, which always gives me comfort when I am troubled, is the farthest thing from my mind right now. I got home last night (after spending 45 minutes trying to find the CVS for a prescription I need, because I was in a daze when the doctor told me where the prescription was filled), took a few stitches, and put my stitching down. Beazer crawled up on the bed with me, and I just petted him and petted him. He gave me a look, like, "You have no reason to be afraid, you has pittybull protecting you. Nossing bad will happen, Mummy," and then licked my face. He's a good boy, that old dog of mine.

I know I'll be back to stitching in a day or two. I just need a moment to process.

14 comments:

Annie said...

Sending positive thoughts your way. I've been going through something myself and it definitely takes a while to get a grip and get yourself calmed down so you can deal with it.

Syd said...

I hope that things are resolved for you soon. Getting back to stitching is always a sign to me that thing are right with my world.

riona said...

Be well. And, yes, it is all right to put yourself first. Sometimes, it's actually imperative.

ArchangelDecker said...

Sending you lots of hugs and prayers, Ms. Rachel!

Rachael xxx said...

((Hugs))

valerie said...

Whatever it is, I hope that it all turns out ok. It sounds like you're in good hands!

Carol said...

Sorry to hear you're having health problems, Rachel--please take extra good care of yourself and lean on your husband and doctors... Sending you a warm hug...

Astrid's dragon said...

Sending prayers your way, hang in there. It sounds like you have wonderful support, lucky you!

April Mechelle said...

Sending Prayers your way !!

Vicky said...

Sending big positive hugs your way.....

Stitchinowl said...

Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way. Take things one day at a time and try to just forge ahead. Please keep us updated.
Carolyn

Rosanne said...

Have a wonderful b-day today. I hope you get everything your heart desires.

Rosanne

Jenny said...

Oh Rachel, I am thinking of you and hoping for all the best! I am so glad that you have such a wonderful support system and your puppy is right - he'll take care of you!
Many hugs to you!

Pumpkin said...

Hoping that everything will be okay Rachel! Having the rug pulled out from under you is no fun. Take care of yourself. ((((HUGS))))

I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped--Frederick Perls