26 February 2014

Sometimes the guilt takes over

I admire people who have the willpower to stitch one project at a time. I don't.  Part of it is because I could only stitch one project at a time as a child, but I think I just lack whatever it takes to commit to one piece and finish it. This is why I read 4 or 5 books at a time, I think. I just can't focus. Every so often, I tell myself that I am going to work to finish my WIPs and it NEVER happens. EVER. I just seem to keep adding to them.

Anyway, I pulled out Hummingbird Trellis afghan this week. I haven't worked on it . . . ohh, probably since our wedding, if that recently. But I thought I'd sit and try to do some of it this week.  I've made some progress, the two roses weren't completely finished when I picked it up and they're done and I've started on a third, and I'm filling in the endless shades of green. I do love this design, as I do love most SCs.  I just sometimes wonder if it's ever possible for me to finish it. I mean, it's been 8 or 9 years since I started working on it and I have 4 squares done, because life happens . . . and life is going to continue to happen. And I know myself well enough to know I can not sit and commit to only this, not if it takes 5 years to do. Not when I have at least 5 other substantial projects to do. But at this rate, it will be 30 years for me to finish it and that's no better.

I'm sure some of my malaise is based on being sick. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sunday night, I came home from work and pretty much collapsed into bed. As I was lying there, I heard Someone Small say to her dad that "Mommy go ni-ni" and I felt wretched because I wanted to play with her, but I didn't feel well. Monday, we went out to dinner, which was ruined by a headache, and I came home and collapsed into bed again. Last night, we managed to get a little bit of play in before bed, but I was still asleep by 9. I think I have a sinus infection, since I have a lot of the symptoms, but I don't have a doctor to call about calling in a prescription, so I'll be at Urgent Care tonight, trying to get some relief. This winter has been rotten enough without being constantly ill. 


Chocolates4Breakfast (TerriBoog) said...

The roses are gorgeous, Rachel! Whenever you do get done (and you will), it will be a treasure. I hope you feel better soon!

riona said...

If you want to try a holistic remedy for sinus congestion and relief of pressure, get some Swiss Kriss laxative tea at your local pharmacy. Make up the tea using 3 heaping teaspoonsful in a 4 qt pot of boiling water. Take off the heat and throw a towel over your head and give yourself a steam facial. You'll clear your sinuses and improve your complexion all at once.

Repeat as needed, every couple of days until you feel cleared out.

Meari said...

No worries... It took over a decade to finish my afghan, lol. Every stitch counts, you know.

Hope you feel better soon.

Annie said...

Those roses are so classic and pretty. I always think it's about the process and not the finish. If it's fun to stitch a little at a time, I say just do it and don't worry about the end product.

Hope that winter crud disappears soon and you are feeling back to your old chipper self!

Clare - Aimetu said...

I hope you feel better soon x x

Michele Hebson said...

The roses are coming out beautifully. And I can't say that I am always a one at a time person when it comes to my stitching because I do have a good handful of projects that I still have to finish when the gumption returns to work on them again. But here lately I have found myself concentrating on one at a time. So no guilty feelings, eh.

I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped--Frederick Perls