26 February 2014
Sometimes the guilt takes over
I admire people who have the willpower to stitch one project at a time. I don't. Part of it is because I could only stitch one project at a time as a child, but I think I just lack whatever it takes to commit to one piece and finish it. This is why I read 4 or 5 books at a time, I think. I just can't focus. Every so often, I tell myself that I am going to work to finish my WIPs and it NEVER happens. EVER. I just seem to keep adding to them.
Anyway, I pulled out Hummingbird Trellis afghan this week. I haven't worked on it . . . ohh, probably since our wedding, if that recently. But I thought I'd sit and try to do some of it this week. I've made some progress, the two roses weren't completely finished when I picked it up and they're done and I've started on a third, and I'm filling in the endless shades of green. I do love this design, as I do love most SCs. I just sometimes wonder if it's ever possible for me to finish it. I mean, it's been 8 or 9 years since I started working on it and I have 4 squares done, because life happens . . . and life is going to continue to happen. And I know myself well enough to know I can not sit and commit to only this, not if it takes 5 years to do. Not when I have at least 5 other substantial projects to do. But at this rate, it will be 30 years for me to finish it and that's no better.
I'm sure some of my malaise is based on being sick. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sunday night, I came home from work and pretty much collapsed into bed. As I was lying there, I heard Someone Small say to her dad that "Mommy go ni-ni" and I felt wretched because I wanted to play with her, but I didn't feel well. Monday, we went out to dinner, which was ruined by a headache, and I came home and collapsed into bed again. Last night, we managed to get a little bit of play in before bed, but I was still asleep by 9. I think I have a sinus infection, since I have a lot of the symptoms, but I don't have a doctor to call about calling in a prescription, so I'll be at Urgent Care tonight, trying to get some relief. This winter has been rotten enough without being constantly ill.