I haven't stitched the last couple days. I've been in a bit of a stress-induced slump. Too many looming deadlines, information has not been passed to us in regards to the wedding correctly that has now created an issue. Specifically, we were told we needed one session of counseling, now that has expanded to six, and 6 sessions of pre-marital counseling puts a massive strain on us financially and logistically. My priest is a bit confused as well, as this is the person he recommended us to. He said if it doesn't work, he'll refer us to someone else because we need to have someone we can trust, and I'm a bit irritated that, if my home priest is willing to work with our schedules, I call this guy up, explain HTB is self-employed and that 6 meeting is a lot of time for him to lose workwise, and got silence as a response. We can do a weekend retreat, but not sure how that works, or how much it costs. HTB wants to know if we can share a room (probably not). He is taking it better than I am, he's just irritated. I'm panicking. Even my mother said she understands why people don't get married if this is what it takes to do it. It's not that I don't respect the process of marriage, I do, but we actually don't have a lot of issues in the relationship that we need to talk over and resolve. We resolved a lot of things: we want kids, we realize we have some debt issues to be dealt with, we're honest with each other, we committed that, short of major malfunctions, we see this marriage through. Anything else, we'll work it out,just as our parents did, and their parents. We've had good role models in our parents' marriages--there are 92 years of marriage between the two. I'm not expecting to go into this knowing how to be the perfect wife, and I know he's not the perfect husband. Life is a growing process. Maybe I just have a crappy attitude. As a result, I just didn't want to put needle to linen. I actually didn't want to do much at all.
I'm pulling myself together. Hole-ing up won't fix this. And I've got commitments to meet, stitching wise. I have to do that quilt square. I can start that at work tonight. That is the first step. Then finish my ring pillow. Then work on my ornament. One day at time, one stitch at a time.