Followers

02 June 2014

"I ain't nothing but a dream"--RIP, Dad.

My Daddy died on Saturday evening. I am feeling a mix of emotion right now. I didn't want him to hurt and that prayer was answered, but, for the first time in 37 years, I can't talk to my dad. And I didn't realize how much I'd miss that. I don't usually post music to this blog. I know I have slightly wonky taste in music. I try not to inflick that on you. But this is a song that, to me, is my dad. I first heard it in college. It was on the soundtrack to "The War" with Kevin Costner and Elijah Woods. It did not do well in the theatres, but it was an awesome movie. And it has THE BEST soundtrack, because it's all good 60's music. I had it on cassette, because I couldn't afford CDs. My dad drove down to Kentucky to pick me up for my first Christmas break, and this was one of the tapes we played on the way home. We used to talk a lot on those trips, and, anytime I hear this, I'm back in that old Dodge pickup truck, heading home through December twilight, seeing Christmas lights. And everything was OK. I know it will be that way again, someday, just a different kind of OK, it's the figuring out what that different is that's a challenge. And some pictures of him (I think I've posted these. We don't have a lot of pictures of our younger days. my family was a family that took pictures, but we were not people who got them developed. There are rolls and rolls of film at my parents house and I don't even know if you can get film developed anymore. I think someone who had parents like mine developed the digital camera.)




13 comments:

valerie said...

I'm so sorry to read about your dad's passing Rachel. Keep thinking about those happy memories you shared together. My condolences to you and your family.

Kathy A. said...

I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your Dad. Sending warm supportive hugs!

Denise said...

So sorry to hear of your father passing. Being a daddy's girl myself - I know your loss. Relive your happy memories of him and eventually the pain will lessen. Hugs to you!

Robin said...

Rachel, please accept my deepest sympathies on the loss of your Dad. May the memories you hold bring you comfort in the coming days.

Robin in Virginia

Stitchinowl said...

Rachel, I am so sorry for your loss. My condolences to your whole family. Try to take comfort in your wonderful memories.
Carolyn

Blu said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. My condolences to you and yours.

Annie said...

So sorry to hear about your father. I hope that your wonderful memories of him bring you comfort as your heart heals.

stitchersanon said...

I am so very sorry to hear your dad has passed. I can't even imagine what you must be going through right now but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and I am sending you a huge hug from Ireland. Lovely music and fantastic for you that you have such amazing memories, keeping your dad in your heart xx

Sew Wilde said...

So sorry to hear of your dad's passing! I lost my dad too. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

You can still get film developed.

Julie

Carol said...

I'm so sorry to read about your dad, Rachel... I know it must feel very odd without him around. You are so lucky he met your sweet daughter and I know the memories of happy times shared will help you through this difficult time.

Sending a caring hug your way...

Terri said...

I am so sorry for your loss! My father passed away 3 years ago and I still miss him terribly! Hugs and prayers!!

Rita said...

I'm very sorry for your loss and pray for your comfort and peace.

Shebafudge said...

Thoughts and prayers to you on your dad's passing. I'm glad that he went without pain. Sending you a big hug!

I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped--Frederick Perls